Post by EMPATHY on Oct 3, 2009 17:19:27 GMT 1
When I write the tarot I do know what I see. I dont always say exactly what that is but I try to write what I feel would be 'ok' to pass. I have from the moment of writing Tarot for Michael (16 March 2009) felt particularly minded to guard certain thoughts. It results in having to express what I see in ways that I have hoped would help people but at the same time not expose too much of what I would feel was the PRIVACY factor.
I know that the best result is to just believe that Michael has gone. The tarot has asked many times to 'let the issue go' and on occasion has been quite 'rude' back to my questions. When those feelings come up I seem to think that it is enough questions at that time and I try to move off the obvious things like - 'is Michael really deceased'.
Tarot has never told me Michael has died. The tarot points out all the circumstances which seem to suggest it but it contradicts itself about them being an actuality.
I am not worthy of being described as a fan to Michael because I know in my heart that I have never been the type of person to idolise superstars or have fantasies about anyone. Im a grown woman exactly Michaels age - nothing like that would occur to me in my life except perhaps when I was young with natural growing hormones and feelings which are often released at putting pictures of pop stars on the walls.
To me Michael is just another person who has shared the universe.
I have always been spiritual - believing in odd and weird things and nothing that I have done deliberately its just something that has been a part of me since I was young. I do feel connected to vibrations of people and I do feel that Michaels vibration hit the world very strongly in June 2009.
This happened to me over Madeleine Mccann also. Where this little girl was concerned I have devoted 2 years to help to locate her and I will continue to do so until this child is found - why? I dont know why - I just know that I have to complete the mission.
This is what occurred when Michael died. A 'mission' of sorts came to me. I felt like I needed to be a 'speaker' for him and just relay tarot that was turning up. I felt it was or could be words of comfort to his fans.
We are all individuals in life with many sides to our personalities - many sides. Michael was able to utilise all his 'sides' to create something very wonderful. He seemed to reach out to many people through those sides. That could have been musically, spiritually, charismatically, through nurturing, understanding, giving. Whatever someone saw in Michael they linked on to one of his 'sides' that he was magnetically able to project.
Though I cannot be accurate about 'all things' - because Tarot has its own time pocket - I see it has already turned over quite a few things that have come to pass. I do feel there is a complete link in to Michael and nothing that I am able to explain.
I dont think Im his voice - but I do feel that through the tarot his thoughts and feelings can be projected on a harmonious level - and in the tarot some very accurate information has been afforded.
We are all connected to the energy of the Universe. Some people will accept that we can bounce off each others energy and we can lock in. Others would find that extremely difficult to accept. The art of Tarot is to produce results of spirituality and ability to connect the source of energy. It does work however hard it is to accept or explain.
I will stay writing for Michael until I know that it is time to go. There will be a time to go - but for the meantime I will just try to be an instrument of enlightenment for those that feel it helps them.
Michael to me is very much 'alive' - I know what I see - but one has to understand what tarot means when the word 'alive' comes into play.
Michael did not want to grow old in the public eye - we none of us want to grow old - we all look in the mirror and sometimes have that clarity that we are changing slowly. It is not just the image that changes but also the persona and the character as well as the body. We grow into an understanding of life and its nature, its magic and its wonders. Life takes us forward and leaves the past behind. We have to go with it. Michael had to go with it. We cant change the forces of nature.
Our thoughts and feelings and who we are inside remain the same, they change only through maturer understanding and enligtenment of that understanding. Michael knows nobody can live forever - but good deeds can. Caring, loving, sharing all these things can be part of the future to go on and on. We have to do 'our bit' in society to make sure of that. Michael has done his bit and I feel is continuing to do his bit. Perhaps though, from a different standpoint. I would be with him on this and I know there are many who too would see and understand it.
Michael of 'yesterday' is gone. Michael of today is still here. Michael of the future will be locked in the hearts of all those he has built foundations for out of the strength to learn to be true to himself. It asks people to be true to themselves too. To take your own heartfelt feelings and to conciously believe what you feel and not to succomb to any other opinion.
Jesus in the Bible said - ' know them by their fruits' -
That tells you that if you are in doubt about someone or something - consider what they do. If what they do is righteous and kind - then you will know in your heart that nomatter what else is said or done - that you have accurately understood the meaning of that person.
Tarot can also be known by its 'fruits' - let the fruits speak to you and always remember to wait for them to ripen.
